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03.11.10 I wrote (and two days later deleted):

I now have my 3 month anniversary.

Not to make I big deal out of it and I'm not going to do this each month any more, but since I did this last month I'll do it again this last time because a lot has happened this month.

I have come far this month - all the way to Cuscowilla and back again. I feel fortunate and a little proud of my self who has dared to take such a big step.

But where do I go from here? It seems like an anticlimax. It's long time to wait till spring. I'm not very motivated to read TGM either. I had a dream and I've been on the mountain top and have seen the light and it's only downwards from here. Been there. Done that.

Well, these are my lousy thoughts at the 3 month annversity - kind of depressing, I guess. A month ago I knew where I was going. Now what? I guess you could call this a combination of a winter/darktime / post Cuscowilla depression. Who knows?

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Now I think I am beginning to look forward again and not just back at the top of the mountain way up there. But there still is some work to do to be my old self again ...